Peace
I wish you manage to find peace. I appreciate what I got.
Tuning your mind and body is done through peace, and it expands it.
Losing weight will also relieve you from psychiatric illnesses to a certain degree, as there is less inflammation, and you align yourself with better versions of you.
Deciding to lose weight and sticking with it depends majorly on psychological tools you develop and use.
Half the battle to get /fit/ is psychological. Allow yourself to go through your ideas, use AI to discuss them. Try what you think might work, and keep using it if it makes you more resilient.
Over time I have developed several mental tools that allow me to stay in peace as much as possible.
In general, I would advise on being more observant about your impulses, there is no need to lose patience, almost never. Use your body with smooth calculated movements that avoid hurting yourself or others. And allow yourself to feel some frustration as you try to forgive, because it's a daily ongoing process to understand yourself and the rest.
I still need to make a lot of progress as I find myself in mental situations that punish me, or that make me act unfairly. Part of it due to my paranoid schizophrenia. But that has been getting better after medication, mental development, and body development.